PLEASE GIVE ME A LIL MORE TIME...

In the name of my Lord, The Most Wonderful The Most Gracious.

Peace be upon all of you who willing to spend just 2 minutes to read this new post. This post is dedicated to some of them who really play the important role of my life.

Dear Lord,

First of all, I really begged for Your forgiveness. Forgive me for every wrong that I've done. Please forgive me for forgetting You sometimes, for not remembering You always. O Allah... Thanks for always being there for me. For always touching my heart & give me comfort by making me believe that there is nothing to worry about. I know it's rude, but please give me the chance to be myself back.

Umi & Abah... I'm really sorry for my weaknesses. I know I've make you guys really disappointed about me. Sorry for my bad attitudes & for being so hard-headed nowadays... I know I've changed a lot. Please do remember this.... I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!! Please give me a lil more time. I'll try to make you guys happy one day. Insha-Allah...

To my dear prince, Ahmad... Sorry I've scolded you a lot of times. Orang teringat masa Ahmad cakap kat Mizah, "Basyirah dulu baik, tapi sekarang dah garang." It really makes me laugh that time. But deep into my heart I know I'm crying so hard like I can hardly breathe. I know I'm really the bad guy now. Betul cakap Ahmad. I've changed. I realize that too but I just don't know why. Forgive me for not being a really go0d sister. You always try to make me feel that I'm kind & pretty, even though I know that I'm not. Huhu...

My dear prince... Please give me a lil more time to be the go0d Basyirah once again. You will always be the person who I loved the most NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN.

To my only younger sister, Hamizah...

Thank you for doing a lot of things for me, for trying so hard to make me happy during my 1st April every year, for always trying to defend me no matter what I'm facing. I remember once ago, you wrote in your essay that I'm your idol. Well, I think I'm not your idol anymore huh? :) Sorry for not treating you very well these times. I can't even remember the joy when I laughed with you. I can barely remember the peaceful feeling that I spent with you. Mizah, I'm sorry... :'( Please give me a lil more time.

To Ahmad Haziq Luqman, the person who always stand beside me in every situation, who try to make me laugh when I cried for a really bad day, who always listen & understand my feelings. I'm really really sorry for always putting the burden on you. I know I've hurt you a lot of times but you always say, "It's okay" & smile to me as if nothing had happened. Minta maaf sebab selalu sakitkan hati awak. And minta maaf sangat sebab selalu pentingkan diri sendiri. :( Please give me a lil more time to find myself back. Hope you will forgive me....

Dearest Amina Al-amin, Najah Khairul & Nor Lyana Omar. Thanks for always listening to me. I'm sorry for not being the best person for you guys. Please give me a lil time to make you guys smile like before. I miss all of so much ! 

Pearl...

OBI-WAN KENOBI...

Assalamualaikum...

How are you today? First of all, I would like to say thanks for willing to visit my site. It's kinda long time I didn't even update my post here. It's jut because I don't even have an idea for a topic to post to my blog.

This time I really want to share a video with you guys. It's a part from Star Wars Episode 3. Well, actually I'm not really gonna talk about this video. I just wanna talk about how I love the way Obi-wan Kenobi swung his laser sword. Damn.. I love it so much !! It looks awes0me, great and so HEROIC ! <3 Hey, why don't you try to play the video down here. I bet you'll like it. :)

Guess what... I really wish I can be a hero like Obi-wan. He fancies me ! Co0l huh? I really like the way he hold up the justice. He is so a great person ! I wish I can be as kind & strong like him. Go Go Obi-Wan...! :D

O Allah.. I need Your help

O Allah... You know today I'm really confused. I don't understand about what's happening around me. I'm week & I need Your help. Please Allah... show me what's the best. I believe in You.

O Allah... Please listen to what I say. Please guide me to the right path. Please help me to face my difficult days. I lay everything on You cuz I trust You most.

O Allah... You know how dreadful I feel. I'm confused & I don't know what to do. It really pinched my heart but I believe You have the reason why everything is happening.

O Allah... Please help me to smile & to be strong. Even if I cry a well of tears, I know that I still won't get the answer for what I'm facing. So Allah, I rely everything on You...

O Allah... today, in the evening when i gaze at the bright blue sky, I realize that You are always there for me. You always being there to listen, You always being there to wipe my tears away, You are always there to accompany me when I'm alone, & You understand me for everything that make me hurt. So please... help me to be tough.

Love You most, Pearl...

For my beloved Ahmad...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to Ahmad Faisal....

Happy birthday to you....

Selamat hari lahir saya ucapkan kepada Ahmad Faisal Zulkifli. (1st June). sekarang dah 6 tahun dah nooooo.... Dah besaq dah adik basyirah sorang neh. Basyirah doakan semoga Ahmad panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Love you forever, my dear prince...!

Hope You'll be Strong...

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah, Maha Penyayang, yang memberikan saya sedikit masa dan peluang untuk mengarang post yang sangat2 ringkas & padat ini. It’s just a simple sharing. May Allah bless the reader. Insha-Allah…

Setiap apa yang datang pasti akan pergi. Ini memang fitrah kehidupan yang perlu kita terima. Tapi ketahuilah bahawa Allah tidak pernah mengambil sesuatu dari kita kecuali Dia menggantikannya dengan yang lebih baik.

“Sesiapa yang Aku ambil orang yang dicintainya di dunia tetap mengharap redhaKu, nescaya Aku akan menggantikannya dengan syurga”

-Hadith Qudsi.

So we don’t have to feel down for what had happen… sebab Allah yang menentukan segalanya. Bukankah Allah itu sebaik-baik perancang? Bukankah Dia yang memiliki syurga, balasan, pengganti dan ganjaran yang besar? Bukankah Allah tahu segalanya? He knows the best for us so please keep on smiling. J

I remembered that someone once told me that it’s okay if you wanna cry, but don’t ever ever forget to smile back.

And if you ever wonder about what’s going to happen after you face a disaster, just remember that Allah never forgets you. He’s near to us, always willing to hear us cry. So you don’t have to worry if you have nobody to turn to cuz Allah is always there for you… Jut call upon Him, insha-Allah there’s always a way.

“Ingatlah, sesungguhnya bantuan Allah itu sangat dekat…”

(Surah Al-Baqarah: 214)

Dalam sebuah hadis, Rasulullah juga ada menyebut, “Ketahuilah bahawa bantuan itu ada bersama kesabaran dan jalan keluar itu selalu berganding dengan cubaan.

Jangan berdukacita kerana kita masih berpeluang untuk berdoa. Kita juga masih mempunyai waktu untuk merapatkan dahi ke tanah untuk bersujud. (Dipetik dari ‘La Tahzan’)

Kita juga perlu ingat, datangnya ujian dan cubaan bukan menandakan bahawa kita dilupai, tapi itulah salah satu tanda Allah sayangkan kita.

Tiada siapa menafikan sakitnya hati apabila ditimpa musibah. Just remember… bukannya Allah tidak tahu betapa sakitnya hati kita, menderitanya jiwa kita dan banyaknya air mata yang mengalir… Tetapi Dia sengaja datangkan ujian kerana Dia tahu dengan ujian hati-hati kita akan dekat pada-Nya…

I hope you can understand what I’m trying to say. I have tried my best for this post. Well you know, I usually wrote my post in English. So kekok sikit nak mengarang in BM. Anyway, hope you'll be strong…

O Allah.. please forgive me.

O Allah…..!
It hurts when I have to let go the things I really love...
It hurts when I have to lose something that I really want...
It hurts, Allah… it hurts…
Allah… I realize that I can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that I can never smile without the conscious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..
I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For I have neglected You for a long time..
For I have loved others more than I should love You..
For I have prioritized others more than I should..
Even then…
You still gives me food to eat..
when I am not supposed to eat what I shouldn’t eat
You still gives me eyes to see..
when I am not supposed to see what I shouldn’t see
You still gives me ears to hear..
when I am not supposed to hear what I shouldn’t hear
You still gives me skin to touch..
when I am not supposed to touch what I shouldn’t touch
You still give the air I’m breathing now..
when I have done tonnes of mistakes..
How can someone not fall for You??
You are very kind O Allah..
You are great O Allah..
but I forget..
I’m so occupied with this world..
I’m so busy with my life..
I’m so so busy about myself!
I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can I do that to You Allah…
I’m such an arrogant slave..
I’m not thankful to You…
I feel embarrassed
O Allah. I’m embarrassed…
but please O Allah… soon one day
I will be meeting You, Allah!
Forgive me on that day O Allah
Have Mercy on that day O Allah
Shower me with Your BLESSINGS on that day
O Allah… that is my only wish…

Everything we have is a gift from God

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Wonderful The Most Forgiving…

Many times we think of God's Great Gift to us. Allah is of course the Greatest Gift. Without Him nothing else would matter. But you see… the bottom line is, everything we have is a gift from Him, The Al-Mighty Lord.

The gift of life is from God. If not for Him we would not exist. Every breath we take is a gift from Allah. Our physical strength, mental ability, and spiritual sensitivity are all gifts.

In facing our days, a lot of thing we have as a gift. Whether we have little or much, what we are blessed with is ultimately from our Lord, Allah S.W.T… Even it is talents, time, health, wealth, friends, work, or love… we have Allah to thank for all of these. He gives freely, not based on what we deserve, but solely on His goodness.

He blesses us with life and health. Let us be thankful while we have them and use them for good. He blesses us with loved ones. Let us think of them often, pray for their needs, and be there for them whenever we can. He blesses us with forgiveness. Let us humble ourselves before Him, reveal our faults, and follow after future truths. He blesses us with His Words (The Quran). Let us read and appreciate it anew daily for spiritual guidance and sustenance.

In surah Al-Insan : 2-3, Allah S.W.T said, “We created Man from a drop of mingled sperm, in order to test him: So We gave him (the gifts), of Hearing and Sight. We showed him the Way: whether he be grateful or ungrateful (rests on his will).”

You see… everything we have is really a gift from Him. Even when He takes away something from your hand, don’t think He is punishing you. He is just leaving you empty handed to receive something better! So don’t have to worry much cuz Allah knows best… J

Dear Allah…

I thank You for my being able to see and to hear every day. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving Allah (SWT) and You always understand me. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. You never turn You back on me even when I turned my back on You. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness…

Dear Allah…

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than Allah (SWT). I realise that even I have a big problem; I always do have The Greater Allah. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly...

A very simple day

Bismillah…

Well, this post is about my day. I mean my birthday. Yeah~ I know it’s not my birthday anymore. Actually I have to make this post yesterday but honestly yesterday I feel so so so exhausted! So I just have to delay it first to have some rest. And finally, I’m making this post now. Alhamdulillah...

You know? My birthday this year is quite boring. We don’t even celebrate it like the years before. Well, it’s just okay as I understand that everybody is getting busy these days. But know what? I was a little excited when Umi told me that someone sent me a huge parcel. Of course it is my birthday present. But I began to be more keyed up when I opened the huge box lid; there was a really2 cute teddy bear! And I decided to call it my Mr. Teddy.

Mr. Teddy & me (Ahmad nie seb0k je kt belakang tuh. haishh~! )

(Dari kanan: Ahmad, Mr. Teddy, Hamizah)

Well, there were t-shirt, a cute Mickey Mouse alarm clock & a key-chain too. Thanks Mr. Luq… I love it so much~!!! J

I still have short beautiful moments with Hamizah’s friends. They are so wonderful, kind-hearted and sweet. They surprised me with presents too!!! Masha-Allah.

(bersama kwn2 Mizah)

(cute kan??? :D)

Umi and my sister Hamizah baked me a chocolate cake. Honestly, it’s damn yummy! Thanks Umi… I love your cake. We enjoyed the cake in the evening together.

(Ahmad x sabar nk mkn. huhu~)

During the night, when Abah came back home from work, he told us that he was really exhausted so we have to cancel the birthday party at the pizza restaurant. Well, it’s just okay cuz I don’t care much. Anyway, I'm touched when my friends wrote a blog post special for my birthday. Hell yeah~ nobody ever did that for me. Well, this is the link to their blog

http://blogceriteraku.blogspot.com/2011/04/something-for-youu-bashh.html?spref=fb

And

http://sayaazmeerazulkarnain.blogspot.com/2011/04/basyirah-zulkifli.html?spref=fb

Why don't you guys try & ckeck it out!! :)

You see, it’s quite a simple day right? There is nothing special. The very special thing for me is that I’ve got Mr. Teddy for my birthday this year. Cool right? I love it damn much~!!! <3

(Princess 1st April)

Dear Najah

Praise be to Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful…

Dear Najah,

I’m really sorry for what had happened. I try for always being by your side, but I’m sorry cuz I can’t. I tried my best to be a go0d friend but I feel like completely a loser. I have nothing to give and nothing either to share. Sorry but this is the only thing that I can give.

Najah,

You know this is what life is all about. Sometimes, something just happen that makes you cry over and over, trying to make yourself comfort after your heart broken into pieces. Sometimes you can’t even forgive yourself for what had happened. You see, life is nothing but a road. You just have to continue walking through it no matter what it takes. Really hope you’ll be strong, my dear friend. Cuz I love you damn much~!

Do you ever hear that sadness is often from the devil and is a kind of hopelessness? Yeah~ it truly is… This is a test. You have some pain and you suffering alone. Even when you tell me every single bitterness that you face in your daily life, I still never can feel what you really feel. I just can cry and help you just a lil bit as a friend who lives in this world just for a while.

My friend, Najah…

You know that when Allah gives tests for us, it doesn’t mean that He forget about us. It means that He loves us, right? I still remember the moment when you tell me not to worry about you because Allah asks you to be patient. So I hope you are truly okay right now.

Just remember, my dear. When you carrying a monster load and you wonder how far you can go, with every step on that road that you take, Allah knows. Allah knows all your pain, all of the tenderness and the ache in your heart. Allah knows every single tear that you drop from your eyes. Allah knows all of it…

So there’s nothing to worry much. You have a plan but Allah has a bigger plan and His plan is always the better. You say that you want to live happily ever after. Insha-Allah you will! I just hope for you everything better. So just smile, okay? I agreed that happiness is the key for you to smile, but do remember sometimes a smile is the key for you to be happy. Smile always!!! J

Love you so much~!!!

Yours sincerely,

(PEARL)