O Allah.. please forgive me.

O Allah…..!
It hurts when I have to let go the things I really love...
It hurts when I have to lose something that I really want...
It hurts, Allah… it hurts…
Allah… I realize that I can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that I can never smile without the conscious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..
I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For I have neglected You for a long time..
For I have loved others more than I should love You..
For I have prioritized others more than I should..
Even then…
You still gives me food to eat..
when I am not supposed to eat what I shouldn’t eat
You still gives me eyes to see..
when I am not supposed to see what I shouldn’t see
You still gives me ears to hear..
when I am not supposed to hear what I shouldn’t hear
You still gives me skin to touch..
when I am not supposed to touch what I shouldn’t touch
You still give the air I’m breathing now..
when I have done tonnes of mistakes..
How can someone not fall for You??
You are very kind O Allah..
You are great O Allah..
but I forget..
I’m so occupied with this world..
I’m so busy with my life..
I’m so so busy about myself!
I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can I do that to You Allah…
I’m such an arrogant slave..
I’m not thankful to You…
I feel embarrassed
O Allah. I’m embarrassed…
but please O Allah… soon one day
I will be meeting You, Allah!
Forgive me on that day O Allah
Have Mercy on that day O Allah
Shower me with Your BLESSINGS on that day
O Allah… that is my only wish…

Everything we have is a gift from God

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Wonderful The Most Forgiving…

Many times we think of God's Great Gift to us. Allah is of course the Greatest Gift. Without Him nothing else would matter. But you see… the bottom line is, everything we have is a gift from Him, The Al-Mighty Lord.

The gift of life is from God. If not for Him we would not exist. Every breath we take is a gift from Allah. Our physical strength, mental ability, and spiritual sensitivity are all gifts.

In facing our days, a lot of thing we have as a gift. Whether we have little or much, what we are blessed with is ultimately from our Lord, Allah S.W.T… Even it is talents, time, health, wealth, friends, work, or love… we have Allah to thank for all of these. He gives freely, not based on what we deserve, but solely on His goodness.

He blesses us with life and health. Let us be thankful while we have them and use them for good. He blesses us with loved ones. Let us think of them often, pray for their needs, and be there for them whenever we can. He blesses us with forgiveness. Let us humble ourselves before Him, reveal our faults, and follow after future truths. He blesses us with His Words (The Quran). Let us read and appreciate it anew daily for spiritual guidance and sustenance.

In surah Al-Insan : 2-3, Allah S.W.T said, “We created Man from a drop of mingled sperm, in order to test him: So We gave him (the gifts), of Hearing and Sight. We showed him the Way: whether he be grateful or ungrateful (rests on his will).”

You see… everything we have is really a gift from Him. Even when He takes away something from your hand, don’t think He is punishing you. He is just leaving you empty handed to receive something better! So don’t have to worry much cuz Allah knows best… J

Dear Allah…

I thank You for my being able to see and to hear every day. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving Allah (SWT) and You always understand me. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. You never turn You back on me even when I turned my back on You. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness…

Dear Allah…

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than Allah (SWT). I realise that even I have a big problem; I always do have The Greater Allah. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly...

A very simple day

Bismillah…

Well, this post is about my day. I mean my birthday. Yeah~ I know it’s not my birthday anymore. Actually I have to make this post yesterday but honestly yesterday I feel so so so exhausted! So I just have to delay it first to have some rest. And finally, I’m making this post now. Alhamdulillah...

You know? My birthday this year is quite boring. We don’t even celebrate it like the years before. Well, it’s just okay as I understand that everybody is getting busy these days. But know what? I was a little excited when Umi told me that someone sent me a huge parcel. Of course it is my birthday present. But I began to be more keyed up when I opened the huge box lid; there was a really2 cute teddy bear! And I decided to call it my Mr. Teddy.

Mr. Teddy & me (Ahmad nie seb0k je kt belakang tuh. haishh~! )

(Dari kanan: Ahmad, Mr. Teddy, Hamizah)

Well, there were t-shirt, a cute Mickey Mouse alarm clock & a key-chain too. Thanks Mr. Luq… I love it so much~!!! J

I still have short beautiful moments with Hamizah’s friends. They are so wonderful, kind-hearted and sweet. They surprised me with presents too!!! Masha-Allah.

(bersama kwn2 Mizah)

(cute kan??? :D)

Umi and my sister Hamizah baked me a chocolate cake. Honestly, it’s damn yummy! Thanks Umi… I love your cake. We enjoyed the cake in the evening together.

(Ahmad x sabar nk mkn. huhu~)

During the night, when Abah came back home from work, he told us that he was really exhausted so we have to cancel the birthday party at the pizza restaurant. Well, it’s just okay cuz I don’t care much. Anyway, I'm touched when my friends wrote a blog post special for my birthday. Hell yeah~ nobody ever did that for me. Well, this is the link to their blog

http://blogceriteraku.blogspot.com/2011/04/something-for-youu-bashh.html?spref=fb

And

http://sayaazmeerazulkarnain.blogspot.com/2011/04/basyirah-zulkifli.html?spref=fb

Why don't you guys try & ckeck it out!! :)

You see, it’s quite a simple day right? There is nothing special. The very special thing for me is that I’ve got Mr. Teddy for my birthday this year. Cool right? I love it damn much~!!! <3

(Princess 1st April)

Dear Najah

Praise be to Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful…

Dear Najah,

I’m really sorry for what had happened. I try for always being by your side, but I’m sorry cuz I can’t. I tried my best to be a go0d friend but I feel like completely a loser. I have nothing to give and nothing either to share. Sorry but this is the only thing that I can give.

Najah,

You know this is what life is all about. Sometimes, something just happen that makes you cry over and over, trying to make yourself comfort after your heart broken into pieces. Sometimes you can’t even forgive yourself for what had happened. You see, life is nothing but a road. You just have to continue walking through it no matter what it takes. Really hope you’ll be strong, my dear friend. Cuz I love you damn much~!

Do you ever hear that sadness is often from the devil and is a kind of hopelessness? Yeah~ it truly is… This is a test. You have some pain and you suffering alone. Even when you tell me every single bitterness that you face in your daily life, I still never can feel what you really feel. I just can cry and help you just a lil bit as a friend who lives in this world just for a while.

My friend, Najah…

You know that when Allah gives tests for us, it doesn’t mean that He forget about us. It means that He loves us, right? I still remember the moment when you tell me not to worry about you because Allah asks you to be patient. So I hope you are truly okay right now.

Just remember, my dear. When you carrying a monster load and you wonder how far you can go, with every step on that road that you take, Allah knows. Allah knows all your pain, all of the tenderness and the ache in your heart. Allah knows every single tear that you drop from your eyes. Allah knows all of it…

So there’s nothing to worry much. You have a plan but Allah has a bigger plan and His plan is always the better. You say that you want to live happily ever after. Insha-Allah you will! I just hope for you everything better. So just smile, okay? I agreed that happiness is the key for you to smile, but do remember sometimes a smile is the key for you to be happy. Smile always!!! J

Love you so much~!!!

Yours sincerely,

(PEARL)

An-Nur: 25-26

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Powerful The Most Understanding...

Today, I have a dream. And this time I decided to share it here... In my dream, I was walking and laughing happily with my friends. While we were laughing with lots of joy, I saw something written on the wall next beside the place we were having some rest. Suddenly I felt something weird when I realize that it was only me who noticed about it. I pushed my friends away from my side so that I can see what is written there. It wrote 25-26: An-Noor. I quickly tried to find my blue Quran but sadly to say, it’s not there…

Suddenly I woke up - feeling so weird. I asked myself again and again what EXACTLY the dream is all about. I went to my classmate’s room and told her about my dream. I borrowed her Quran, searched for the verses and this is what I found.

“That Day, Allah will pay them in full their deserved recompense, and they will know that it is Allah who is the perfect in justice. Evil women are for evil men, and evil men are for evil women. And good women are for good men, and good men are for good women. Those [good people] are declared innocent of what the slanderers say. For them is forgiveness and noble provision.”

O Allah… You’ve been so kind to me. You never let me face this life alone. I realize that You are always there for me. Thanks for reminding me, Allah… Please guide my steps and don’t ever let me go astray.

Lastly, You know everything…

Smile is better...

In the name of Allah, The Compassionate, The Merciful
Peace and blessings be upon our Master Muhammad SAW, his pure family and all his noble companions.

Prophet Muhammad SAW said, "Smiling in the face of your brother is charity (Sadaqa)"

SMILE is about something beautiful in life. Smile gives you strength and honours. Most people believe that smiling can change the world. Hey! I believe that too. You see, a smile can attract good things to you. It can make someone sick feel at peace. It can help someone get to know you better. A smile can lift your spirits and the spirits of those people around you. It can show someone that you care. It can be a guiding light in the face of darkness. It also can make someone laugh. A smile can touch another person’s soul. It can change someone’s day. A smile can brighten a room. It can open doors. It can make someone feel safe. It can show love when there wasn’t even a trace just moments before.

So why do we save our smiles when our Ideal (SAW) used to smile the most? We see that people who are religious tend to have serious faces, they hardly smile. Let us change this concept. Islam does not stop us from smiling in fact it encourages. It gives us reasons to smile. So beautify your faces with a smile because the easiest way to make other people smile is to be kind, courteous, and SMILE CONSTANTLY! We already heard that action speaks louder than word, and a smile to others says, “I like you. You make me happy and I am glad to see you.” No wonder a smile can change the world.

I notice every time I go out people don’t smile as often as they used to. Everyone is rushing around, getting busy with their own life without thinking about others and thought that their way is enough to guarantee them a happy and meaningful life. Well, sadly to say that they are COMPLETELY WRONG…!!! Why? Hey!! It’s obvious..! HUMAN BEINGS CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT SMILE…!!! Why not..? Smiling can change your mood! Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There’s a good chance your mood will change for the better. Believe it or not… just believe it. :D Smile also helps you to relieve stress, boost your immune system to work better, lower your blood pressure and also makes you attractive. And hey! There’s a bonus… Smiling lift the face and makes you look younger too…

Lastly, remember that sometimes your joy is the source of your smile and sometimes your smile is the source of your joy. And never do regret something that once makes you smile. Smile always!!

O Allah, forgive us, forgive our sins we have done, please… You are the best and You know everything…