I Figured Out Life

Assalamualaikum...
In the name of My Lord, The Most Almighty The Most Compassionate.

Today I've got the chance to spend a lil time at KUIS. Just to have a moment to ponder the little things in life. (To my dear Umi, its not that I don't like being by ur side. You're so important to me. Ur such a wonderful mother. I love you).

Well I just thought there are things that I would like to share. I'm not really a good person and that's why I choose to share things 4 us to remember. May it gives benefit to my readers and of course to myself as well.  Ameen O Allah...

During having my time at KUIS, I was thinking about a lot of things. About how things happen in life & why does it do. Here, I saw a lil girl. About 2 years old, I think. She's so cute with a ponytail hair wearing blue dress with a shiny black baby doll shoes. "Subhanallah.. she's gorgeous!" I said to myself. I looked while walking to her. I kneeled and gave her my bear hands. I smiled at her and said "Salam kakak..." she grab my hands then kissed me at the forehead. She smiled. I gulped. I feel like there's love inside me. I couldn't take it anymore as my tears start rolling down my cheeks. I never, I mean NEVER met such a girl like her.

I suddenly realise how life really is. I figured that Allah's love will always be inside u no matter how dreadful u are or no matter how sucks ur life is. Hell yeah. Allah is there, within ur vein. Then I realise something I forgot for such a long time ago. It doesn't count how you fall. Falling down is never a problem but the real problem is how you tried to get yourself up ! No matter how u lost your life, He will still be there saying "Don't worry my dear servant. It's just for a little more time."

There's time when I feel like life scared the hell out of me. Yes. That's what life do ! Sometimes it makes u want what u will never have, makes u believe for things that will never happen, makes u feel things that is not real at all ! Even sometimes it makes u love something or someone so badly ! But then end up taking it back from u. But do remember this dear self. Maybe u didn't have chance for what u want in this life, but u'll have it for the forever lasting life. More better than the life u live right now. But don't ever forget to stop praying to The Most Forgiving and Giving. He knows. Yes. He knows...

Dear Allah, the only one that understand & know the reason of every lil things we do while others are too busy judging us, the only one who remembers us all the time while the others just there to remember us in several situation, the only one that knows how many tears dropped from our eyes & how much laugh we do while our heart cries to death. Please do make our heart as strong & tawadhuk as the solihin. Dear Allah, the one who holds all of our heart, please show us miracle.

Pearl.

Happy November 12 ! :D

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Okay first of all, sorry sangat2 kat Mizah & Khairi sebab lambat buat post ni. Memang ingat nak buat post time birthday korg je tapi x sempat. Plus, laptop orang yang tiba2 tenat tu kan tak hantar kedai lagiiii.... Heheh. 

Anyway, Happy Happy & A Happy Birthday to both of you. Harap dengan meningkatnya umur itu seiring dengan meningkatnya tahap keimanan, inshaAllah... :) Thanks dekat korg jugak. Sebab birthday korg, org dapat makan kek. Haha... :P

Amboi Mizah.. Sempat lagi posing before tengok kek. Ngee~

Haha. Ciwan dah x sabar tunggu time nak potong kek la tuu..  :P

Yumm yummm... Sedapnyaaa ! :D

Honestly, sedappp sangat birthday cake Mizah & Khairi. Rasa macam nak lagi. Tapi dah habis dahh.. :( Oh ye.. Kejap2. X nyanyi lagi Birthday Song untuk korg kan? Okay meh nak nyanyi sikit...

Happy Birthday to you;

Happy Birthday to you;

Happy Birthday to Mizah & Khairi;

Happy Birthday to you.... Yeayyy~! 

To Mizah: Thanks sebab selalu jadi adik yang baik. Selalu dengar cakap orang, ambil berat tentang orang, selalu ingat orang... You are the most wonderful sister EVER ! Bersyukur sangat dapat adik yang baik + solehah macam Mizah. Selalu doakan orang tauu.. (love)

To Khairi: Happy birthday !!! Terima kasih banyak2 sebab selalu belanja kitorang semua. Hee~ Terima kasih berjuta-juta kali tau ! For being a very good brother, and for your care. THANKS !!!! May Allah bless you always. :D

I'll love you guys, and our whole family forever INSHAALLAH..!

Birthday girl: Hamizah

Love,

Pearl :D

Happy Birthday My Dear Prince.. :D

Praise be to Allah, Lord of the world which because of Him we are still alive..

Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to Ahmad (blink blink blink) ....
Happy birthday to you.

(haa... ni dia kek bufday Ahmad.. sedapnyaaaaa...)

Happy 7th birthday to me dearest brother Ahmad (on 1st June) ! Semoga dengan meningkatnya umur, meningkatlah keberkatan dalam hidup Ahmad yang soleh & comel nie... <3 Ameen ya Rabb~!

Best sgt time birthday Ahmad.. Kami ke penang.. Asalnya ikut Abah keje, tp dah alang2 tu balik laa kampung. Ziarah Tok & Wan... Wan sakit kaki, kesian kat Wan.. Nak solat susah, nak jalan x boleh, makan pun dah x lalu. Hati nie tersentuh sgt masa t'dengar Wan doa sakitnya disembuhkan spy dpt b'ibadah & solat terawih dlm bulan Ramadhan yg hampir tiba nie. Rasa sebak.. :(

Allah,
Jika kesembuhan itu lebih baik untuk Wan, Kau sembuhkanlah dia supaya dia ada kekuatan utk beribadah. Jika tidak, Kau jadikanlah Wan orang yg redha dgn ujian yg telah Kau berikan pd Dia. Smg dgn itu Dia akan dapat sesuatu yg lebih baik kelak..

(snap gambar dalam kereta.. Nie boring punya pasal. Huhu~)

3hari 2mlm di kampung, then kami balik rumah. Best sgt birthday Ahmad tahun nie. Even simple tapi penuh bermakna..! Macam2 benda baru yg dah dipelajari.

To my dearest elder sister, Safiah. Rugi tau x balik.. Padan muka x boleh sambut birthday Ahmad sama2 dgn kt0rg.. Sapa suruh x nak balik belanja org Domino's.. hee~
Xpe2. Lain kali hang balik jgn lupa belanja tau.. <3

"...Ya Tuhanku, berilah aku petunjuk agar aku dapat m'syukuri nikmatMu yang telah Engkau limpahkan kepadaku dan kepada kedua orang tuaku, & agar aku dapat b'buat kebajikan yang Engkau redhai; dan berilah aku kebaikan yg akan mengalir smpai ke anak cucuku."
(Al-Ahqaf: 15)

Pearl

PLEASE GIVE ME A LIL MORE TIME...

In the name of my Lord, The Most Wonderful The Most Gracious.

Peace be upon all of you who willing to spend just 2 minutes to read this new post. This post is dedicated to some of them who really play the important role of my life.

Dear Lord,

First of all, I really begged for Your forgiveness. Forgive me for every wrong that I've done. Please forgive me for forgetting You sometimes, for not remembering You always. O Allah... Thanks for always being there for me. For always touching my heart & give me comfort by making me believe that there is nothing to worry about. I know it's rude, but please give me the chance to be myself back.

Umi & Abah... I'm really sorry for my weaknesses. I know I've make you guys really disappointed about me. Sorry for my bad attitudes & for being so hard-headed nowadays... I know I've changed a lot. Please do remember this.... I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH !!! Please give me a lil more time. I'll try to make you guys happy one day. Insha-Allah...

To my dear prince, Ahmad... Sorry I've scolded you a lot of times. Orang teringat masa Ahmad cakap kat Mizah, "Basyirah dulu baik, tapi sekarang dah garang." It really makes me laugh that time. But deep into my heart I know I'm crying so hard like I can hardly breathe. I know I'm really the bad guy now. Betul cakap Ahmad. I've changed. I realize that too but I just don't know why. Forgive me for not being a really go0d sister. You always try to make me feel that I'm kind & pretty, even though I know that I'm not. Huhu...

My dear prince... Please give me a lil more time to be the go0d Basyirah once again. You will always be the person who I loved the most NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN.

To my only younger sister, Hamizah...

Thank you for doing a lot of things for me, for trying so hard to make me happy during my 1st April every year, for always trying to defend me no matter what I'm facing. I remember once ago, you wrote in your essay that I'm your idol. Well, I think I'm not your idol anymore huh? :) Sorry for not treating you very well these times. I can't even remember the joy when I laughed with you. I can barely remember the peaceful feeling that I spent with you. Mizah, I'm sorry... :'( Please give me a lil more time.

To Ahmad Haziq Luqman, the person who always stand beside me in every situation, who try to make me laugh when I cried for a really bad day, who always listen & understand my feelings. I'm really really sorry for always putting the burden on you. I know I've hurt you a lot of times but you always say, "It's okay" & smile to me as if nothing had happened. Minta maaf sebab selalu sakitkan hati awak. And minta maaf sangat sebab selalu pentingkan diri sendiri. :( Please give me a lil more time to find myself back. Hope you will forgive me....

Dearest Amina Al-amin, Najah Khairul & Nor Lyana Omar. Thanks for always listening to me. I'm sorry for not being the best person for you guys. Please give me a lil time to make you guys smile like before. I miss all of so much ! 

Pearl...

OBI-WAN KENOBI...

Assalamualaikum...

How are you today? First of all, I would like to say thanks for willing to visit my site. It's kinda long time I didn't even update my post here. It's jut because I don't even have an idea for a topic to post to my blog.

This time I really want to share a video with you guys. It's a part from Star Wars Episode 3. Well, actually I'm not really gonna talk about this video. I just wanna talk about how I love the way Obi-wan Kenobi swung his laser sword. Damn.. I love it so much !! It looks awes0me, great and so HEROIC ! <3 Hey, why don't you try to play the video down here. I bet you'll like it. :)

Guess what... I really wish I can be a hero like Obi-wan. He fancies me ! Co0l huh? I really like the way he hold up the justice. He is so a great person ! I wish I can be as kind & strong like him. Go Go Obi-Wan...! :D

O Allah.. I need Your help

O Allah... You know today I'm really confused. I don't understand about what's happening around me. I'm week & I need Your help. Please Allah... show me what's the best. I believe in You.

O Allah... Please listen to what I say. Please guide me to the right path. Please help me to face my difficult days. I lay everything on You cuz I trust You most.

O Allah... You know how dreadful I feel. I'm confused & I don't know what to do. It really pinched my heart but I believe You have the reason why everything is happening.

O Allah... Please help me to smile & to be strong. Even if I cry a well of tears, I know that I still won't get the answer for what I'm facing. So Allah, I rely everything on You...

O Allah... today, in the evening when i gaze at the bright blue sky, I realize that You are always there for me. You always being there to listen, You always being there to wipe my tears away, You are always there to accompany me when I'm alone, & You understand me for everything that make me hurt. So please... help me to be tough.

Love You most, Pearl...

For my beloved Ahmad...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to you...

Happy birthday to Ahmad Faisal....

Happy birthday to you....

Selamat hari lahir saya ucapkan kepada Ahmad Faisal Zulkifli. (1st June). sekarang dah 6 tahun dah nooooo.... Dah besaq dah adik basyirah sorang neh. Basyirah doakan semoga Ahmad panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki. Love you forever, my dear prince...!

Hope You'll be Strong...

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah, Maha Penyayang, yang memberikan saya sedikit masa dan peluang untuk mengarang post yang sangat2 ringkas & padat ini. It’s just a simple sharing. May Allah bless the reader. Insha-Allah…

Setiap apa yang datang pasti akan pergi. Ini memang fitrah kehidupan yang perlu kita terima. Tapi ketahuilah bahawa Allah tidak pernah mengambil sesuatu dari kita kecuali Dia menggantikannya dengan yang lebih baik.

“Sesiapa yang Aku ambil orang yang dicintainya di dunia tetap mengharap redhaKu, nescaya Aku akan menggantikannya dengan syurga”

-Hadith Qudsi.

So we don’t have to feel down for what had happen… sebab Allah yang menentukan segalanya. Bukankah Allah itu sebaik-baik perancang? Bukankah Dia yang memiliki syurga, balasan, pengganti dan ganjaran yang besar? Bukankah Allah tahu segalanya? He knows the best for us so please keep on smiling. J

I remembered that someone once told me that it’s okay if you wanna cry, but don’t ever ever forget to smile back.

And if you ever wonder about what’s going to happen after you face a disaster, just remember that Allah never forgets you. He’s near to us, always willing to hear us cry. So you don’t have to worry if you have nobody to turn to cuz Allah is always there for you… Jut call upon Him, insha-Allah there’s always a way.

“Ingatlah, sesungguhnya bantuan Allah itu sangat dekat…”

(Surah Al-Baqarah: 214)

Dalam sebuah hadis, Rasulullah juga ada menyebut, “Ketahuilah bahawa bantuan itu ada bersama kesabaran dan jalan keluar itu selalu berganding dengan cubaan.

Jangan berdukacita kerana kita masih berpeluang untuk berdoa. Kita juga masih mempunyai waktu untuk merapatkan dahi ke tanah untuk bersujud. (Dipetik dari ‘La Tahzan’)

Kita juga perlu ingat, datangnya ujian dan cubaan bukan menandakan bahawa kita dilupai, tapi itulah salah satu tanda Allah sayangkan kita.

Tiada siapa menafikan sakitnya hati apabila ditimpa musibah. Just remember… bukannya Allah tidak tahu betapa sakitnya hati kita, menderitanya jiwa kita dan banyaknya air mata yang mengalir… Tetapi Dia sengaja datangkan ujian kerana Dia tahu dengan ujian hati-hati kita akan dekat pada-Nya…

I hope you can understand what I’m trying to say. I have tried my best for this post. Well you know, I usually wrote my post in English. So kekok sikit nak mengarang in BM. Anyway, hope you'll be strong…

O Allah.. please forgive me.

O Allah…..!
It hurts when I have to let go the things I really love...
It hurts when I have to lose something that I really want...
It hurts, Allah… it hurts…
Allah… I realize that I can never live without Your mercy..
I realize that I can never smile without the conscious that You are pleased with me..
I realize that I can never lead my life if You are unhappy with me..
I am sorry..
I am really really sorry..
For I have neglected You for a long time..
For I have loved others more than I should love You..
For I have prioritized others more than I should..
Even then…
You still gives me food to eat..
when I am not supposed to eat what I shouldn’t eat
You still gives me eyes to see..
when I am not supposed to see what I shouldn’t see
You still gives me ears to hear..
when I am not supposed to hear what I shouldn’t hear
You still gives me skin to touch..
when I am not supposed to touch what I shouldn’t touch
You still give the air I’m breathing now..
when I have done tonnes of mistakes..
How can someone not fall for You??
You are very kind O Allah..
You are great O Allah..
but I forget..
I’m so occupied with this world..
I’m so busy with my life..
I’m so so busy about myself!
I can never forgive myself if this were to happen again..
how can I do that to You Allah…
I’m such an arrogant slave..
I’m not thankful to You…
I feel embarrassed
O Allah. I’m embarrassed…
but please O Allah… soon one day
I will be meeting You, Allah!
Forgive me on that day O Allah
Have Mercy on that day O Allah
Shower me with Your BLESSINGS on that day
O Allah… that is my only wish…

Everything we have is a gift from God

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Wonderful The Most Forgiving…

Many times we think of God's Great Gift to us. Allah is of course the Greatest Gift. Without Him nothing else would matter. But you see… the bottom line is, everything we have is a gift from Him, The Al-Mighty Lord.

The gift of life is from God. If not for Him we would not exist. Every breath we take is a gift from Allah. Our physical strength, mental ability, and spiritual sensitivity are all gifts.

In facing our days, a lot of thing we have as a gift. Whether we have little or much, what we are blessed with is ultimately from our Lord, Allah S.W.T… Even it is talents, time, health, wealth, friends, work, or love… we have Allah to thank for all of these. He gives freely, not based on what we deserve, but solely on His goodness.

He blesses us with life and health. Let us be thankful while we have them and use them for good. He blesses us with loved ones. Let us think of them often, pray for their needs, and be there for them whenever we can. He blesses us with forgiveness. Let us humble ourselves before Him, reveal our faults, and follow after future truths. He blesses us with His Words (The Quran). Let us read and appreciate it anew daily for spiritual guidance and sustenance.

In surah Al-Insan : 2-3, Allah S.W.T said, “We created Man from a drop of mingled sperm, in order to test him: So We gave him (the gifts), of Hearing and Sight. We showed him the Way: whether he be grateful or ungrateful (rests on his will).”

You see… everything we have is really a gift from Him. Even when He takes away something from your hand, don’t think He is punishing you. He is just leaving you empty handed to receive something better! So don’t have to worry much cuz Allah knows best… J

Dear Allah…

I thank You for my being able to see and to hear every day. I'm blessed because You are a forgiving Allah (SWT) and You always understand me. You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me. You never turn You back on me even when I turned my back on You. Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you. I ask now for Your forgiveness…

Dear Allah…

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than Allah (SWT). I realise that even I have a big problem; I always do have The Greater Allah. Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight. I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees them and every mouth that confesses them willingly...

A very simple day

Bismillah…

Well, this post is about my day. I mean my birthday. Yeah~ I know it’s not my birthday anymore. Actually I have to make this post yesterday but honestly yesterday I feel so so so exhausted! So I just have to delay it first to have some rest. And finally, I’m making this post now. Alhamdulillah...

You know? My birthday this year is quite boring. We don’t even celebrate it like the years before. Well, it’s just okay as I understand that everybody is getting busy these days. But know what? I was a little excited when Umi told me that someone sent me a huge parcel. Of course it is my birthday present. But I began to be more keyed up when I opened the huge box lid; there was a really2 cute teddy bear! And I decided to call it my Mr. Teddy.

Mr. Teddy & me (Ahmad nie seb0k je kt belakang tuh. haishh~! )

(Dari kanan: Ahmad, Mr. Teddy, Hamizah)

Well, there were t-shirt, a cute Mickey Mouse alarm clock & a key-chain too. Thanks Mr. Luq… I love it so much~!!! J

I still have short beautiful moments with Hamizah’s friends. They are so wonderful, kind-hearted and sweet. They surprised me with presents too!!! Masha-Allah.

(bersama kwn2 Mizah)

(cute kan??? :D)

Umi and my sister Hamizah baked me a chocolate cake. Honestly, it’s damn yummy! Thanks Umi… I love your cake. We enjoyed the cake in the evening together.

(Ahmad x sabar nk mkn. huhu~)

During the night, when Abah came back home from work, he told us that he was really exhausted so we have to cancel the birthday party at the pizza restaurant. Well, it’s just okay cuz I don’t care much. Anyway, I'm touched when my friends wrote a blog post special for my birthday. Hell yeah~ nobody ever did that for me. Well, this is the link to their blog

http://blogceriteraku.blogspot.com/2011/04/something-for-youu-bashh.html?spref=fb

And

http://sayaazmeerazulkarnain.blogspot.com/2011/04/basyirah-zulkifli.html?spref=fb

Why don't you guys try & ckeck it out!! :)

You see, it’s quite a simple day right? There is nothing special. The very special thing for me is that I’ve got Mr. Teddy for my birthday this year. Cool right? I love it damn much~!!! <3

(Princess 1st April)

Dear Najah

Praise be to Allah The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful…

Dear Najah,

I’m really sorry for what had happened. I try for always being by your side, but I’m sorry cuz I can’t. I tried my best to be a go0d friend but I feel like completely a loser. I have nothing to give and nothing either to share. Sorry but this is the only thing that I can give.

Najah,

You know this is what life is all about. Sometimes, something just happen that makes you cry over and over, trying to make yourself comfort after your heart broken into pieces. Sometimes you can’t even forgive yourself for what had happened. You see, life is nothing but a road. You just have to continue walking through it no matter what it takes. Really hope you’ll be strong, my dear friend. Cuz I love you damn much~!

Do you ever hear that sadness is often from the devil and is a kind of hopelessness? Yeah~ it truly is… This is a test. You have some pain and you suffering alone. Even when you tell me every single bitterness that you face in your daily life, I still never can feel what you really feel. I just can cry and help you just a lil bit as a friend who lives in this world just for a while.

My friend, Najah…

You know that when Allah gives tests for us, it doesn’t mean that He forget about us. It means that He loves us, right? I still remember the moment when you tell me not to worry about you because Allah asks you to be patient. So I hope you are truly okay right now.

Just remember, my dear. When you carrying a monster load and you wonder how far you can go, with every step on that road that you take, Allah knows. Allah knows all your pain, all of the tenderness and the ache in your heart. Allah knows every single tear that you drop from your eyes. Allah knows all of it…

So there’s nothing to worry much. You have a plan but Allah has a bigger plan and His plan is always the better. You say that you want to live happily ever after. Insha-Allah you will! I just hope for you everything better. So just smile, okay? I agreed that happiness is the key for you to smile, but do remember sometimes a smile is the key for you to be happy. Smile always!!! J

Love you so much~!!!

Yours sincerely,

(PEARL)

An-Nur: 25-26

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Powerful The Most Understanding...

Today, I have a dream. And this time I decided to share it here... In my dream, I was walking and laughing happily with my friends. While we were laughing with lots of joy, I saw something written on the wall next beside the place we were having some rest. Suddenly I felt something weird when I realize that it was only me who noticed about it. I pushed my friends away from my side so that I can see what is written there. It wrote 25-26: An-Noor. I quickly tried to find my blue Quran but sadly to say, it’s not there…

Suddenly I woke up - feeling so weird. I asked myself again and again what EXACTLY the dream is all about. I went to my classmate’s room and told her about my dream. I borrowed her Quran, searched for the verses and this is what I found.

“That Day, Allah will pay them in full their deserved recompense, and they will know that it is Allah who is the perfect in justice. Evil women are for evil men, and evil men are for evil women. And good women are for good men, and good men are for good women. Those [good people] are declared innocent of what the slanderers say. For them is forgiveness and noble provision.”

O Allah… You’ve been so kind to me. You never let me face this life alone. I realize that You are always there for me. Thanks for reminding me, Allah… Please guide my steps and don’t ever let me go astray.

Lastly, You know everything…

Smile is better...

In the name of Allah, The Compassionate, The Merciful
Peace and blessings be upon our Master Muhammad SAW, his pure family and all his noble companions.

Prophet Muhammad SAW said, "Smiling in the face of your brother is charity (Sadaqa)"

SMILE is about something beautiful in life. Smile gives you strength and honours. Most people believe that smiling can change the world. Hey! I believe that too. You see, a smile can attract good things to you. It can make someone sick feel at peace. It can help someone get to know you better. A smile can lift your spirits and the spirits of those people around you. It can show someone that you care. It can be a guiding light in the face of darkness. It also can make someone laugh. A smile can touch another person’s soul. It can change someone’s day. A smile can brighten a room. It can open doors. It can make someone feel safe. It can show love when there wasn’t even a trace just moments before.

So why do we save our smiles when our Ideal (SAW) used to smile the most? We see that people who are religious tend to have serious faces, they hardly smile. Let us change this concept. Islam does not stop us from smiling in fact it encourages. It gives us reasons to smile. So beautify your faces with a smile because the easiest way to make other people smile is to be kind, courteous, and SMILE CONSTANTLY! We already heard that action speaks louder than word, and a smile to others says, “I like you. You make me happy and I am glad to see you.” No wonder a smile can change the world.

I notice every time I go out people don’t smile as often as they used to. Everyone is rushing around, getting busy with their own life without thinking about others and thought that their way is enough to guarantee them a happy and meaningful life. Well, sadly to say that they are COMPLETELY WRONG…!!! Why? Hey!! It’s obvious..! HUMAN BEINGS CANNOT LIVE WITHOUT SMILE…!!! Why not..? Smiling can change your mood! Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There’s a good chance your mood will change for the better. Believe it or not… just believe it. :D Smile also helps you to relieve stress, boost your immune system to work better, lower your blood pressure and also makes you attractive. And hey! There’s a bonus… Smiling lift the face and makes you look younger too…

Lastly, remember that sometimes your joy is the source of your smile and sometimes your smile is the source of your joy. And never do regret something that once makes you smile. Smile always!!

O Allah, forgive us, forgive our sins we have done, please… You are the best and You know everything…

He loves me!!!

Praise be to my Lord, The Most Wonderful.

These days, I really feel disappointed. Feeling sad, frustrated, depressing, gloomy and everything worse I can ever thought. At first, I thought I’m just not feeling well. But something started to make me feel kind of weird when I began to cry without knowing why! I started to find the problem that makes me feel like this. Then I asked myself, is it because of my brother Shafiq is moving to another school? Hmm, maybe because of that… But deeply into my heart, I noticed that that is NOT the main problem. Then I peeked deeper into my heart, what’s the thing that is not going right? Alhamdulillah… With Allah’s help, I found the reason. It is being such a long time when I didn’t ‘walk’ on this earth and praise Him for the beauty of the world.

I started to go out of my room, walked on the roads, touched the flowers to my nose, hugged the trees, gazed at the sky, pondered the white clouds, the morning light, the food He gave me, swam the pool, and do everything that brought me back closer to nature. Yes! I had successfully found the reason. Allah, You like beauty. So no wonder why You make this world so beautiful, so interesting…


Then I realized that there is someone who really cares about what I feel, and He hears my every cry. His arms are reaching out to me, and MashaALLAH… on Him I can rely everything. When things close in around me, He sees my fear and doubt. He wants to hold me in His arms, and He will never cast me out. When I lose hope and stumbling through the darkness, He will be my guiding light and never will let me go astray. He wants to wipe away my tears so I’ll feel like being a precious lady. Well of course, He is my very love one, Allah. My Lord, it is true what people always told me... You are EVERYTHING!!!

Dear readers, lets together reach out right now to Allah, and let Him take complete control of you. We’ll realize that we have nothing to worry much cuz He’ll take that heavy burden. Let Him take you in His loving arms. Subhanallah, His love will never end. In the HADITH we are informed that if we WALK towards ALLAH, HE will run unto us! O Allah, thanks for being so kind to me, to my parents, to my brothers and sisters, to my friends, and to everybody I've known. Please Allah, bless us all...

Allah, You are the Most Understanding…

For my forever prince

Ahmad, I'm really sorry. Kind of late. Quite busy in KUIS. But I'm still gonna wish you....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

(1ST JUNE)

MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU SO...

LOVE YOU.

YOU ARE MY FOREVER PRINCE.

Lots of love,

Your sister, Basyirah

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In the name of my Lord the Most Understanding, the Mast Protecting…

Well, at last… I’ve decided where I wanna further my studies. KUIS, inshaAllah…. Yeah~~ Hopefully, this is the best for me. Jadi sekarang, ana kena cuba lupakan niat ana nak masuk khassah. Maybe, tu bukan yang terbaik untuk ana. Allah, please help me to do my best.

Berjuta penghargaan ana nak tujukan kepada raja dan permaisuri hidupku, Umi dan Abah… Thanks ya!! Umi & Abah selalu nakkan yang terbaik untuk kakak. I love you both. You both are very kind to me. Cuma kakak yang degil sangat. Minta maaf, Umi… Minta maaf, Abah… Sorry for being so dreadful. You guys are the best. Love you forever, inshaAllah… Smg bahagia dunia akhirat. Ameen…

Kepada kakakku yang amat dicintai, Safiah @ Kak Safi, Thanks for the ‘sms’ you sent to me before. Kandungannya betul2 memberi kesedaran kepada hati yang agak keras ni. “Pilihan parents sebenarnya untuk kebaikan anak-anaknya. Dan DISITULAH TERSELIT KEREDHAAN, inshaAllah…” Yes, orang akan cuba ingat kata2 tu. Sangat bermakna dalam hidup insan seluruhnya.

Adikku Shafiq yang sangat disayangi, yakinlah… Apa yang Umi & Abah nak untuk kita sebenarnya untuk kesenangan kita pada masa depan. Oh ya, Buat PMR elok2 ok? Kalahkan Incah. Ha3…

Ciwan, jadi anak & abang yang soleh tau! Ciwan lah yang paling besar ada kat rumah. Kitorang yang lain semua belajar jauh2. Ciwan jangan nangis tau! Huhu… Love you always…

Mizah yg jelita, thanks cuz selalu layan org dengan baik. Jangan risau... walaupun kita berjauhan, Mizah tetap ku ingat di hati.

Ahmad, I'm sorry... Basyirah tak sempat nak sambut birthday Ahmad sama2. Tapi tak apa, Basyirah tetap akan sambut kat kolej nanti, inshaAllah... I love you always cuz you are my handsome prince forever and ever...

Kepada abg2ku… Zubair, Khairi, Nabil. Kakakku, Safiah. Dan adik2ku Shafiq, Ridwan, Hamizah, and Ahmad Faisal, please pray for me ok? I love you all. And I’m happy to have you all in my life. Thanks for everything you’ve done to me. Segala-galanya betul2 dah mendidik hati ni. Terima kasih sangat2…

Mas’ulah halaqahku, Kak Mazniha Berahim. Jazakillah atas semangat yang diberikan. “Jika kita sungguh berhajat, berusaha , sanggup susah payah... insyaAllah, bantuan Allah sgt dekat... Tarbiyah itu di tangan, di tangan kita jualah… You can do if you want to do!!” K/mas, Thanks lagi sekali…

Kepada sahibah2 seperjuangan ana, jom kita sama2 cuba teruskan usaha kita. InshaAllah… Life is not telling about falling down, but it’s about standing up after the fall. So, jangan risau… Kalau terjatuh, kita still ada peluang untuk bangun as long as we live… And He’ll accept us always! Dia Maha Pengampun dan sangat memahami hamba2-Nya.

Adik2 MATRI yang sangat ana cintai & kasihi. K/Basyirah minta maaf kalau kecewakan adik2. Tapi, Allah takdirkan khassah bukan untuk K/Basyirah. Jangan risau, adik2 still boleh teruskan hidup adik2 dengan tenang tanpa K/Basyirah. Adik2 nak selesaikan masalah adik2, dan adik2 nak berubah. So, inshaAllah adik2 boleh. K/Basyirah yakin, dalam diri adik2 ada kelebihan yang sangat tinggi nilainya. Kelebihan tu lah yang boleh bawa adik2 dekat dengan perubahan kepada yang lebih baik. Believe me.. You all can do it!! Mungkin dah sampai masanya korang belajar berdikari. Huhuhu… 1 hari nanti, bila K/Basyirah jumpa adik2, K/Basyirah yakin adik2 akan buat K/Basyirah tersenyum cuz adik2 akan jadi insan2 yang SANGAT HEBAT! Biar orang lain terkejut. K/Basyirah yakin adik2 K/Basyirah boleh… InshaAllah…

Dan kepada sesiapa yang selalu ingat ana dalam doa, thanks sangat2.. Ana hargai semua tu. I'll always remember your kindness. Teruskan doa untuk ana ya!! Jaga diri... Semoga Allah memberi kekuatan dalam hidup dan menghadiahkan keredhaan-Nya untuk kita. Allah, berikanlah mereka kebaikan lebih daripada apa yang mereka mahukan untuk aku.

Lastly, Allah knows everything~~~

Dia Maha Pengampun

Tak ada manusia yang tidak berdosa, sebab manusia selalu dihinggapi dosa. Dan manusia yang baik bukanlah manusia yang tanpa dosa, tetapi manusia yang apabila dia melakukan dosa, dia menyedari kesalahannya dan bertaubat kepada Allah.

"Kemudian, sesungguhnya Tuhanmu (mengampuni) bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan kesalahan karena kejahilannya, kemudian mereka bertaubat setelah itu, dan memperbaiki ( dirinya) sesungguhnya Tuhanmu sesudah itu Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang." (Surah An-Nahl: 119)

Dalam sebuah hadis: “Sesungguhnya, tatkala hamba yang bermaksiat menadahkan kedua belah tangannya ke langit, lalu berkata, “Ya Tuhanku.” Maka malaikat akan menutupi suaranya. Kemudian, hamba itu mengulanginya lagi, “Ya Tuhanku”, Malaikat pun menutupi suaranya lagi. Hamba itu lalu mengulanginya lagi “Ya Tuhanku” Malaikat pun menutupi suaranya sekali lagi. Kemudian ketika hamba Allah itu mengulanginya untuk kali keempat, “Ya Tuhanku.” Maka Allah berfirman, “Sampai bila engkau akan terus menutupi suara hamba-Ku ini? Aku memenuhi panggilanmu, wahai hambaKu; Aku memenuhi panggilanmu, wahai hambaKu; Aku memenuhi panggilanmu, wahai hambaKu; Aku memenuhi panggilanmu, wahai hambaKu.” (Petikan dari buku ‘Jangan Takut! Allah Maha Pengampun’ penulisan Amr Khaled)

Ya Allah, kami lemah tanpa kehadiranMu dalam sanubari. Bukan Engkau yang menjauhkan diri dari kami, tetapi kami yang menjauhkan diri dariMu. Kami mohon, benar-benar berharap… janganlah Engkau biarkan kami walau sekelip mata kerana kami alpa tanpa bimbinganMu, leka tanpa pimpinanMu, terkandas di pertengahan jalan tanpa cinta dan kasihMu.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami yang meruntuhkan perlindungan kepada diri kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami yang mendatangkan bencana kepada diri kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami yang merosakkan nikmat yang Kau anugerahkan kepada kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami yang merintangi doa-doa kami, ampunilah dosa-dosa kami yang menurunkan bencana buat diri kami. Ya Allah, ampunilah segala dosa yang telah kami lakukan dan segala kejahatan yang telah kami kerjakan.

When they laughed at me...

This happened yesterday, when I told them why I wanna study in khassah. I just continue and continue till the time when they asked me what is my mission in khassah till I’m willing to sacrifice my dream to study journalism. Well there are already KLMU and KUIS for me to catch my dream, but I decided to leave it for a while and go to khassah first. So I say, I wanna run for my mission before anything else. Cuz for me, my mission is thousands of times more important than my dream. Then, THEY LAUGHED AT ME!!!

Know what? That really, really hurts me. Well of course, I can forgive them for laughing at me. But hey…. I will never forget how they just laughed at me as if I was telling them a funny story. I WILL NEVER FORGET IT TILL I DIE. Hey, don’t you remember… ‘to err is human’. Yes, everybody makes mistake but do remember that everybody CAN change.

“God Himself does not propose to judge man until the end of his day, so why should the humans do that?” Dr. Johnson (Psychologist of United State) Taken from a book, ‘How to Win Friends and Influence People’ by Dale Carnegie.

Allah, I know You are there for me. You know, if not because of Your help, I’ve give up right now. Allah, I need Your help….. Please show me a way, where I suppose to go and what I suppose to do. Please Allah, help me.

You’ve left us in The Quran, Al-Anbiya’: 83-84 [And when Ayob cried to his Lord, “Verily, distress has seized me, and You are the Most Merciful of all those who show mercy.” So We answered his call, and We removed the distress that was on him….. ] So Allah, You’ll help me too right?

To my sister, Kak Syafiyah Adzhar… You know I love you so much. You helped me and understand me a lot. Thanks… You are really my forever sister.

To Kak Maisarah Azmi and Kak Mazniha Berahim, thank you for your advice. Don’t worry, sis… I’ll remember it always, inshaAllah…

To my friends, Iffah Hanna, Imtisal, Afiqah, Basyirah, Syahirah, Iman, Naiemah, Fatinah, Fatimah, Aisyah and others… thanks for always understanding me when I have nobody. You’ve gave me some strength to be more confident for studying in khassah. Thank you… Hey you guys, try don’t stop supporting me in my life, okay? Cuz I need all of you. I love you all lillah, inshaAllah… Hope we’ll be friends forever. Ameen…

Don't give up...

Praise be to my Lord... The Most Understanding, The Most Wonderful...

This post is dedicated to everyone especially me.

In this world that surrounds us, we sometimes brake down and fall. We try to fight in this world that always seems to fight us back. We’ll hide away in corners and put upon ourselves pain. We have to know this: There’s no escape from this life cuz we all must face something that suffer. Although we may struggle… then, we fall and fall, Allah will stand by our side and He’ll stay with us through those damn difficult moments. He is your shoulder to cry on and He’ll ALWAYS be around you.

Do remember that no ones perfect and everybody will have to face something hard. But anything can be done with a little faith and hope, right? Hey… I can promise that it WILL get better. Just stop giving up your life. Continue your life doing the best you can do. Allah will help you. Believe it…

You are stronger than you think, so remember to stand tall. Do note that every challenge in your life helps you to grow. Every problem you encounter strengthens your mind and your soul. Every trouble you overcome increases your understanding of life. When all your troubles weigh heavily on your shoulders, remember that beneath the burden you can stand tall, because you are never given more than you can handle... and you are stronger than you think

“Believe in Allah and Rasulullah, and you strive hard and fight for Allah with your wealth and lives, that is better for you if you know.”The Quran (As-Saff: 11)

For we all suffer sometimes in our lives. Some of us suffer loss, others from the feeling of being different. There are so many things that bring us down. Some sit in their rooms and just cry and pray for a better life, some of us can’t handle things and reach for the knife. Whatever makes you depressed, no matter how down you feel, how close to giving up you get, don’t!!!

Hold on, be strong, there is always someone out there who cares for you. Life has it’s up and downs, and one day, it’ll look up for you too. If you need someone to turn to, Allah is there all the time :D.

O Allah, do help us to face this life. You are the best….